. I truly want to be a follower of Christ, and I’m trying my best to follow his commandments. But, it is so hard! Especially

. Yk I’ve been thanking him and asking for things but nothing ever happen. I wonder if he actually hears me or not . Countless

. I’m at the lowest point in my life and my faith and belief in god is hanging on by a thread and it’s very

. It’s ironic and sad to me that my family does not approve or understand my conversion. They act as if I have become crazy.

. Just a little vent(?) of mine. Wanted the input of others, too. I know very well that, as a human being, there are things

. Everytime I sin it feels like a part of me is taken away like for example now Im always deathly afraid that i commited

. I was raised non-denominational protestant, but my parents sent me to a Catholic school as a kid. Because of this, I became pretty combative

. I’m not looking for sympathy but answers: since 2017, I have been broken spiritually and I shifted vehemently to agnostic. There are days I’m

. This year religion began to attract a lot of attention to me, I come from an atheist family so I felt like a little

. Pretty much im schizoaffective(bipolar and schizo). I understand distortions or delusions are common. I feel god judges me for sin or supposed sin. I