Life

August 25, 2025

My life is horrible and I’ve prayed and prayed at this point I’m starting to think that God loves the bad people while the good people suffer . It’s like people keep saying just pray keep talking to God and I’m 46 and tired it’s hard to believe in God when he allows you to be mistreated disrespected and abused the sad part is my pain comes from people that are supposed to love me at this point I’m trying to figure out if God really exist

The world is sown with both wheat and tares. In other words, the tares exist to refine the wheat, and the wheat exists to persuade the tares. Often these tares are one’s own family members, and thus they can even become the cause of a household being broken. Many people dream of their own blessings, happy families, and abundant wealth, but in truth the world exists so that, through the flesh, man might learn sin and evil, and through the conscience, obtain good and righteousness.

It is so that in your own suffering you may come to know the suffering of other brothers, in your own sorrow you may come to know the sorrow of other children, and through your own tears you may come to know the tears of others, that you might receive the grace called compassion. Yet almost all believers cry out only for their own tears, their own pain, their own grief and sorrow, and thus most of them hold not grace but only resentment, regret, and despair. There are countless others in the world who suffer more deeply, who are in greater pain, sorrow, and affliction than yourself. Set aside your own tears, pain, and grief, and pray for them first. Pray also that you may receive the love by which you can pray for them. Then the grace of God, the source of love, will surely work in you. But because all people alike desire only God’s grace for their own worldly ideals, blessings, and happiness, it is faith of the flesh that seeks only personal joy, pleasure, comfort, and consolation, and thus they fail to gain thanksgiving, compassion, humility, and love within their own sorrow, pain, tears, and trials.

Furthermore, the reason the human flesh exists, which is the root of all sin, is so that sin and evil might exist for the purpose of making us true children of God. To help your understanding, consider these examples: it is because darkness exists that we know the definition of light; it is because curses exist that we know the gratitude of blessing; it is because sin exists that we learn the value of good. Thus, though the body of sin and evil is indeed evil, it is a necessary evil that must exist. In other words, through the conscience we come to obtain the good and righteousness of God, and through the human flesh, by the sin and evil of Satan, we come to confess that we are sinners bound by limitation, and thus we obtain the treasure of humility through sin and evil. In this way, sin and evil become the soil from which humility is gained. Yet in the life of the flesh, which can only repeat sin, they also appear as curses and as sickness.

Your faith, because you serve God while at the same time clinging to the world and to material things, is nothing different from the faith of unbelievers who live in the world and in the flesh, ruled by all kinds of corruption, heresy, and falsehood. You are but a mere religionist. In other words, you are not a beautiful Christian whose life is aimed at the hope of Christ, following after the love of Christ. Until the day you die, you will not be able to escape from a life that repeats sin, harboring in your heart only bitterness and resentment.

The Faith of Christianity That Cannot Help but Repeat Sin Until Death

Lest there be any fornicator, or profane person, as Esau, who for one morsel of meat sold his birthright. For ye know how that afterward, when he would have inherited the blessing, he was rejected: for he found no place of repentance, though he sought it carefully with tears.(Hebrews 12 : 16~17)

Today, the great majority of Christians, because they serve God while at the same time clinging to the world and to material things, are teaching and learning all manner of corruption, heresy, and falsehood. In other words, since they teach and learn only the inspirations and lessons of words and theories, they cannot go beyond the limits of human awakenings, resolutions, and determinations, and thus they endlessly repeat sin. The truth, however, is that which leads one to obtain the power of God—the power that sets one free from sin—going beyond the weak human limitation of repeating sin through self-reliant awakenings, resolutions, and determinations born of the inspiration of words.

Know ye not, that to whom ye yield yourselves servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey; whether of sin unto death, or of obedience unto righteousness? But God be thanked, that ye were the servants of sin, but ye have obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine which was delivered you. Being then made free from sin, ye became the servants of righteousness.(Romans 6 : 16~18)

He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil. Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God. In this the children of God are manifest, and the children of the devil: whosoever doeth not righteousness is not of God, neither he that loveth not his brother.(1 John 3 : 8~10)

What pastors who spend their whole lives teaching only with words, and believers who spend their whole lives only listening, can obtain is nothing but pride—pride mingled with falsehood and pretense—piling up sin until they no longer even feel the pangs of conscience. Their proud assertions have been made into the Word, into truth, into God Himself. The reason they cannot teach those who struggle before their repeated sins the fundamental reason why sin must inevitably be repeated is because they themselves also do not know that reason—they are blind. Thus, throughout their lives, they can only stir up words and fleeting inspirations, never teaching the power of God that truly works, and never leading beyond the repetition of sin. For they are not those who possess the Spirit of God that leads one not to sin, but those who possess the spirit of the world and of the flesh.

Who are kept by the power of God through faith unto salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.(1 Peter 1 : 5)

That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.(1 Corinthians 2 : 5)

For the kingdom of God is not in word, but in power.(1 Corinthians 4 : 20)

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.(2 Corinthians 12 : 9)

Like the pastors of Christianity today, the inspiration of words that can never bring about being born again, change, or transformation is nothing but the teaching of man—it is the leaven of the Pharisees. In other words, just as with all forms of religion, the so-called path of enlightenment that only repeats awakenings, resolutions, and determinations born of human thought and self-reliance, while ignorant of the limits of man, is neither the truth of Christ nor the wisdom of God. To this very day, all believers have been deceived by this.

The truth of God is that which leads one to obtain the power of God that surpasses human limitations, beyond what man could ever accomplish by his own strength. Yet I have never seen even a single pastor who truly leads believers to receive the power of God that transcends human limits. In other words, those who teach as though they were shepherds or the Holy Spirit, though they have not even the power, the evidence, or the fruit of a mustard seed, are people who cannot even recognize their own sins. Because they do not feel the pangs of conscience (spirit), they are becoming monsters. More and more, pastors and believers alike take their sins lightly, grow increasingly bold in their sins, shameless and brazen in their sins—worse than beasts. This is why there are no beautiful Christians who truly shine as light and serve as salt, as examples to the world. Those who do not have even the power of a mustard seed are the very ones who, in the height of arrogance, all claim that they have received the Holy Spirit—the arrogance of it pierces the heavens. It is utter tragedy itself.

And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.(Matthew 17 : 20)(Mark 9 : 23)(Philippians 4 : 13)

Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God. And whatsoever we ask, we receive of him, because we keep his commandments, and do those things that are pleasing in his sight. And this is his commandment, That we should believe on the name of his Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, as he gave us commandment. And he that keepeth his commandments dwelleth in him, and he in him. And hereby we know that he abideth in us, by the Spirit which he hath given us.(1 John 3 : 21~24)

That thou keep this commandment without spot, unrebukeable, until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ:(1 Timothy 6 : 14)

Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others….(Ephesians 2 : 3~7)

Today, the reason why not even the power, the evidence, or the fruit of a mustard seed appears is because sinners, who cannot but be reproved before God for their repeated sins, fail to bring forth fruits worthy of repentance. The very purpose for which they believe in God is nothing other than faith for their own worldly happiness, success, blessing, and prosperity. In other words, the purpose of their faith in God is to live well in this life and, along with it, to enter heaven—a faith driven by lust. It is not the life of a true Christian who aims for the hope of Christ, pursuing the love of the cross that gives even one’s own life. Rather, it is a corrupted, heretical, and false faith that seeks to serve God while at the same time clinging to the world and to material things. It is faith that chases after the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes—worldly and fleshly dreams, hopes, ideals, and desires for one’s own happiness, blessings, success, and prosperity.

Thus it is a faith that relies only on words and theories for a lifetime, and a faith that only listens for a lifetime. It is faith that must inevitably deny the life of Christ, the life of the Spirit, that follows after the love of Christ. Therefore, the faith of the flesh, lived out in the world and rooted in the flesh, can only offer vain prayers. As the Word says, “the sorrow of the world worketh death,” so until death they seek nothing but solutions for their own happiness, success, and ideals—the problems of family, of business, of workplace, of relationships, of children, of health. Such faiths are nothing but faiths that end in the judgment of death, seeking only their own worldly sorrows throughout their lives.

For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.(2 Corinthians 7 : 10)

And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself, even as he is pure. Whosoever committeth sin transgresseth also the law: for sin is the transgression of the law.(1 John 3 : 3~4)

Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God:(Psalms 146 : 5)

By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him. For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.(Romans 5 : 2~10)

Only those who live the life of Christ with the hope of Christ as their goal receive the grace by which love is poured into our hearts. For God is love. In this love, one can be born again and be changed. Therefore, today’s Christians, who serve God while at the same time clinging to the world and to material things, all live by a fleshly faith that seeks only their own success, ideals, happiness, blessings, and prosperity. Because they live a fleshly life driven by the fundamental instincts and lusts of the body, which inevitably repeat sin, they can never bring forth fruits worthy of repentance.

I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called, With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love; Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;(Ephesians 4 : 1~4)

Paul, a servant of God, and an apostle of Jesus Christ, according to the faith of God’s elect, and the acknowledging of the truth which is after godliness; In hope of eternal life, which God, that cannot lie, promised before the world began; But hath in due times manifested his word through preaching, which is committed unto me according to the commandment of God our Saviour;(Titus 1 : 1~3)(Hebrews 6 : 17~20)(Colossians 1 : 5~12)(1 Timothy 4 :7~16)(Titus 2 : 7~8)(Ezekiel 18 : 30~32)(Hebrews 10 : 22~29)

If ye continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which ye have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heaven; whereof I Paul am made a minister; Who now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up that which is behind of the afflictions of Christ in my flesh for his body’s sake, which is the church: Whereof I am made a minister, according to the dispensation of God which is given to me for you, to fulfil the word of God; Even the mystery which hath been hid from ages and from generations, but now is made manifest to his saints: To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:(Colossians 1 : 23~27)

And we desire that every one of you do shew the same diligence to the full assurance of hope unto the end: That ye be not slothful, but followers of them who through faith and patience inherit the promises.(Hebrews 6 : 11~12)

Elect according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through sanctification of the Spirit, unto obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ: Grace unto you, and peace, be multiplied. Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, To an inheritance incorruptible, and undefiled, and that fadeth not away, reserved in heaven for you,(1 Peter 1 : 2~4)

And again, Esaias saith, There shall be a root of Jesse, and he that shall rise to reign over the Gentiles; in him shall the Gentiles trust. Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.(Romans 15 : 12~13)(Titus 3 : 3~7)(1 Peter 1 : 20~25)

God is love. Whoever abides in love does not commit sin. Therefore, the very truth is to teach the power of God that leads one not to sin. The power of God’s love works as the power that restrains the members and habits of man which otherwise could only repeat sin. However, today’s Christians pursue heresy, falsehood, and corruption that seek to combine fleshly faith—bound to the world and rooted in the flesh, inevitably repeating sin—with the love of God, and for this reason the power of God does not work among them. A Christian is not a true Christian. They are those who, together with the world, seek only their own happiness and blessing, asking only for worldly sorrows. All their lives they pray only for family problems, business problems, workplace problems, relationship problems, children’s problems, and health problems—faiths of the flesh that will lead to the judgment of death.

To lead people to receive the love of God is the work of a true shepherd of God, and that is the truth. The Word declares that the love of God comes and supplies us with love. Yet today, there is not a single Christian who truly lives according to such a Word. In other words, what they call the Word, the Spirit, prophecy, tongues, and truth, comes from those who do not have even the evidence, the power, or the fruit of faith as small as a mustard seed. Do not follow the teachings of man that exalt only the inspiration of words, without the evidence appearing as the Scripture says. Instead, follow the true shepherd who leads so that the evidence and the fruit described below will surely appear.

increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love.(Ephesians 4 : 15~16)

Let no man beguile you of your reward in a voluntary humility and worshipping of angels, intruding into those things which he hath not seen, vainly puffed up by his fleshly mind, And not holding the Head, from which all the body by joints and bands having nourishment ministered, and knit together, increaseth with the increase of God.(Colossians 2 : 18~19)

For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men, Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world; Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ; Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works…(Titus 2 : 11~15)

For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another. But after that the kindness and love of God our Saviour toward man appeared, Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost; Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.(Titus 3 : 3~7)

The love of God comes into our hearts and nurtures us. If there is a Christian who does not understand this meaning, then depart quickly from that church and from that pastor. For God is love. Any spirit, gift, power, tongues, or prophecy that does not abide in this love of God is 100% the spirit of Satan—it is the work of demons, pretense, falsehood, corruption, and heresy.

“For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you.” (2 Corinthians 13:4)

Just as this Word declares, to lead believers to receive the gift of power by which love is supplied is the work of God’s shepherd, the truth of God, and the gift of God. Faith and belief that do not show even the power, the fruit, or the evidence of a mustard seed are nothing but dead faith, the faith of the adversary, and the fleshly faith that stands as an enemy against love.

Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us. Hereby know we that we dwell in him, and he in us, because he hath given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and do testify that the Father sent the Son to be the Saviour of the world. Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him, and he in God. And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him. Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. We love him, because he first loved us. If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen? And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also.(1 John 4 : 7~21)

All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, throughly furnished unto all good works.(2 Timothy 3 : 16~17)

All the words of God, His ideals, His power, and His truth exist in order to make us children of love, resembling God who is the source of love. It is not by the will or zeal of man born of the flesh, but by pursuing the love of God and receiving the supply of the power of His love, that He leads us to fully do good works. Therefore, a true Christian neither lives nor dies for himself.

If thou put the brethren in remembrance of these things, thou shalt be a good minister of Jesus Christ, nourished up in the words of faith and of good doctrine, whereunto thou hast attained.(1 Timothy 4 : 6)

For none of us liveth to himself, and no man dieth to himself.(Romans 14 : 7)

Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law. For this, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not kill, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness, Thou shalt not covet; and if there be any other commandment, it is briefly comprehended in this saying, namely, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. Love worketh no ill to his neighbour: therefore love is the fulfilling of the law.(Romans 13 : 8~10)

Do not follow the teachings of man that, failing to lead you to receive the love of God in which the power of God works, only stir up awakenings, resolutions, and determinations by relying on oneself through the inspiration of words throughout a lifetime. The teachings of man, which endlessly repeat awakenings, resolutions, and determinations but can never go beyond the limits of man, only puff up the hearts of believers like leaven that soon dies out when one turns away. They are nothing but intellectual, academic, theoretical, and emotional values that twist and falsify the interpretation of the Scriptures. By such means, one can never escape the limits of the flesh, and no matter how much one learns, hears, perceives, or knows, whoever follows the teachings of man is nothing but a child of the devil who only repeats sin.

For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled.(2 Corinthians 10 : 3~6)

As also in all his epistles, speaking in them of these things; in which are some things hard to be understood, which they that are unlearned and unstable wrest, as they do also the other scriptures, unto their own destruction.(2 Peter 3 : 16~17)

Whoever continues to repeat sin, no matter who they are, is nothing but a child of the devil. Remember that He came to call sinners. Repent, as He commanded: Repent! Receive the power of God’s love that puts to death the evil habits of man that can only lead to the repetition of sin. Please, read the Scriptures. Truly, though you have eyes you do not see, and though you have ears you do not hear—you are blind guides.

He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil.(1 John 3 : 8)