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I made a lot of mistakes, I made more mistakes than many, I think more than anyone who is still alive, but please ask him not to stop loving, please, I regret it and I want to regret it more, I can’t stand living without you, someone please someone
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The fundamental reason why God created man with a body of flesh that cannot help but repeat sin is to bring forth humility through that sin. The humility that engraves upon the heart that one is a sinner becomes the way to seek God. The command to repent is given so that we may realize the limitation of the flesh—that with a faith belonging to the world and to the flesh, one cannot help but repeat sin until the day of death. The word that “in the flesh there is only sin” means that man, who lives according to the desires of the flesh, will inevitably fall again and again into sin through the lust of the eyes, the pride of life, and the pursuit of his own desires and ideals.
I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.(Romans 7 : 21~25)
For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.(Romans 7 : 14~18)
Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever.(1 John 2 : 15~17)
All Christians who repeat the cycle of sinning and repenting, sinning and repenting, are for the most part treating repentance as if it were nothing more than the reflection a child writes in a diary. The true purpose of repentance is to prevent sin from being repeated. Yet the repentance of Christians inevitably consists of sinning and repenting, sinning and repenting until the day they die.
This is because their awakening, determination, and resolution come from sermons that emphasize only words and theories, relying on their own will. Thus, according to their interests, they always abandon the very awakening and determination they once made. Their greed comes first, their interests come first, their feelings come first, and their desires come first—so they cannot be changed. No matter how much they realize or feel, they always turn back to their circumstances and fall into sin, for such limitation is precisely the limitation of man. In other words, the limitation of Christian doctrine reveals nothing other than the limitation of man. This does not point to the power of God, but merely exposes the weakness of human limitation. The truth of God is to teach man how to receive the power of God that transcends the human limitation of continually awakening, determining, and resolving while yet falling again into sin. But there is not a single shepherd who teaches people to obtain that power. The reason is that they themselves do not possess the power of God that surpasses human limitation.
That power is the power of God revealed in the love of God. To live a lifetime repeating sinning and repenting, sinning and repenting, is proof that one is chasing heresy, falsehood, and corruption that serve God along with the world and with material gain. Today’s Christianity is man-made. It was neither made by God nor by the disciples of Christ. Therefore, it cannot escape the limitation of man. In other words, the fact that sin is continually repeated proves that through such a religion one cannot be born again, cannot be changed, cannot be transformed, and thus is neither truly religious nor truly a Christian. A true Christian is one who, following the love of God, bears the cross and lives the life of Christ with the hope of Christ as his goal. But the faith of Christians today is centered only on their own happiness, blessing, and success in the flesh. This is not the center of a true Christian’s life.
Even if one spends a lifetime being awakened, determined, learning, and enlightened by the inspiration of words and theories, once they turn back they inevitably repeat sin again, unable to escape the entanglements of their own interests. Such faith of Christianity is a dead faith. Most people are like this. Yet the very fact that you can feel even a little is because God is touching your conscience. Repent. That repentance is the only way to live, and to repent you must deny yourself completely, take up the cross, and follow after the love of God. If you desire to know more about this, read the book Moses’ Burning Bush(e-book Author : Yo Han Lee), and visit the Moses’ Burning Bush(https://mosesbush.com) site. There you will find many more answers to your questions.