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Willfully sinning. Im afraid, I feel condemned, I feel empty, I keep having blasphemy’s thought about God and the word everything. I just to serve God, years ago, but fell into sin. I read Hebrews 10:26 and was afraid I stoped asked for forgiveness, but later on fell again, it’s been about 2 months and I stopped sinning because I got so afraid I lost my salvation, but I haven’t felt conviction the last time I did, I did, for a moment after I did I felt like it wasn’t bad but realized quickly that it’s a bad thing it’s a sin I had to tell my self what’s the matter with you. Now I’m trying to get back with God, I feel empty completely, I’ve repented, but I feel like I’m not being genuine and it hurts, I have blasphemous thoughts, I keep thinking I’m condemned, I’m afraid. I know His word says if we confess our sins He is just and faithful and will forgive us and clean us. I know what I did was wrong, I’m not saying it’s not, but I’m afraid, I can’t function right anymore. Help.
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The repeated cycle of sinning and repenting is the reality for all Christians. In other words, it is because they cannot overcome the habits and members that, even while knowing what sin is, lead them to commit it. No matter how much a person claims to know their sin, as long as they possess habits that inevitably lead them to repeat it, the sin will not stop. Christ’s repentance is not a momentary emotional regret. Only by abandoning everything that belongs to the world and the flesh, and only by receiving the love of God, can that sin be stopped. In other words, the only way is to take up one’s cross—denying even one’s own life—and follow the love of Christ.
God is love. He revealed this love to the whole world through the love of the cross. Therefore, the faith of today’s Christianity—which is rooted in a desire for one’s own happiness, success, and ideals while belonging to the world and the flesh—is not the faith that leads to rebirth and transformation. Only the Christian whose goal is a life of self-sacrifice, centered on the hope of Christ, can be born again, changed, and transformed by pursuing the love of God. Truth is not the Christian form of faith that consists of awakening, resolution, and determination through the inspiration of words and teachings. It is acting in the love of Christ, which is pursued with the resolve to give even one’s own life.
The love of Christ is the supply of love from God, and within that love His power works, enabling us to escape the human limitation of endlessly repeating the cycle of sinning and repenting. In other words, we cannot remove our sins or be freed from them through awakening, resolution, or determination. Scripture clearly states that the child of God does not commit sin and that the child of God is set free from sin. The fact that one continues to repeat sin is proof that they are not a child of God.
He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil. Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God. In this the children of God are manifest, and the children of the devil: whosoever doeth not righteousness is not of God, neither he that loveth not his brother.(1 John 3 : 8~10)
All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, throughly furnished unto all good works.(2 Timothy 3 : 16~17)
That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.(1 Corinthians 2 : 5)
As he saith also in Osee, I will call them my people, which were not my people; and her beloved, which was not beloved.(Romans 9 : 25)
However, the Bible also says that God calls those who are not His children “children of God” so that, by His governing and working in the hearts of brothers and children, He might awaken them to repentance and reflection, giving them another chance to turn back. Only those who abide in God’s love can experience His power at work, putting to death the habits and members that inevitably lead to repeated sin. This is not something that can happen through the inspiration or teaching of words and theories, nor through human awakening, resolution, or determination.
Christians today live as though they are truly Christians. Yet because they serve God while mixing with the world and material wealth, all manner of corruption, heresy, and falsehoods govern and teach them. This is the present reality of Christians today and the limitation of all religions. Religion was not created by God or by the divine; it was made by man. Therefore, the limitations of religion are the same as the limitations of humanity. Which religious people are truly reborn, changed, and transformed? There are none—not a single person on earth. The only people who are transformed are those who receive the love of God, and by the power that is revealed within that love, put to death their habits and members. Teaching this power of God is the truth itself, and it is the life that leads us to salvation.
If you desire to pursue this truth of life, read *Moses’ Burning Bush*(Author : Yo Han Lee). Then you will clearly understand why God created the human flesh that is bound to commit sin. Moreover, any pastors or believers within Christianity who have departed from the Bible are not true Christians. They are people whose faith is of the flesh—bound up with the world and material gain, seeking only their own happiness, success, and smooth prosperity—a faith of desire that inevitably leads to judgment. Truly pursue the power of God that comes from following the love of Christ. This is the only way you can go toward salvation.
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